Connecting back to the source

I got a forwarded email this morning with a similar title. It was very encouraging and got me thinking. More importantly, it got me praying. I am in a place where I would really love to deepen the relationship I have with my Heavenly Father. I've been through a phase where I was burnt out in so many areas of my life. Christianity became something I did not someone I was. I was tired of lessons that I had been taught that I didn't see the teachers living. I'm not here to criticise anyone...if anything the journey I've been on has shown me that we all have weaknesses and life is about living with each other's weaknesses and encouraging each person I meet to turn those into strengths.

Faith is such an important part of my life. Its a core from which everything else flows. I didn't want this to be a 'religious' blog so to speak but if I'm true to myself what is at my core will eventually show through. And how can I say that 'love is beautiful' and overcoming 'against all odds' without talking about God, whose love for me is the most beautiful thing I can think of. Who did overcome all odds to seek out a relationship with me.

I reconnected to my Source for a few minutes this morning. I rarely speak prayers these days I tend to write them. I thought about God and His enduring Presence in my life. How He has always been there. I must admit that a lot of times I keep Him in the background and bring Him out for 'events' but now I want to be in a place where my relationship with Him is as deep and true as it is with SO. Where my talks with Him are not limited to a rushed 'quiet time' in the morning. Quiet time is good. One on one time is always good for any relationship, talk less of One in which you cannot see the other Person physically. But I want to continue whispering all through the day. Smiling as I think of His words to me, meditating on how my life reflects or fails to reflect His character.

Yesterday I was tired and internally cranky. It was just the sort of day when a little thing would push me over the edge so I withdrew into 'silent mode.' This morning after reading that devotional I wrote my prayer, as I commit the worries to paper its like they are physically leaving me. Reconnecting back to my Source provides me with strength and encourages me to tackle today's challenges and trust that the same grace will be accorded me tomorrow. It teaches me that I can love even when it is difficult.

Daddy I thank You that You love me. I know I'm not the most charitable or even an easy person to love. However you made the decision and You promised to always be faithful to me and stick with me till the very end. As a plant cannot grow or even remain alive without a connection to its roots so also does my spirit and soul need that connection with You. I reconnect my thoughts to Your thoughts. I meditate on Your words. I let your actions lead the decisions that I make this day. Teach me to love for You are love. Give me the strength to sacrifice 'me' for 'us' everyday. But teach me to always put You first. Because I don't..not always. Enough light for where I'm standing. That's what I ask.

Thank you Father.

Love. Live.